Each day that goes by I vilify every word in my mind That passes by as I try to grasp on to the goal in sight But my vision gets so hazy and lately I've been so lazy I've been laying in my bed trying not to go crazy Because you are my daisy And maybe I've thinking about you daily I was foisted into this loneliness Too ineffable to describe the feeling holding us It's been molding us with broken trust Like all the useless lust we've toyed with must I am terrified by myself That I can never control my mental health So I take bottles off the shelf and wonder if it'll help But nothing will fix me not even wealth I still long for the days my fingertips trace Your body as it lays warmly in the sun rays And I gaze into your eyes and tell you it'll be alright Just one more night until we're both fine I want your fingers interlocked with mine And I want my hands in your hair Caress the nape of your neck with care Every sensation that was there As your lungs exhale and breath softly out the air That we've shared as a pair of two young souls in despair And dear I know it isn't fair The way you've dared to let me spare Every utterance as I stare Speechless by what I'm feeling inside You take my hand and place it on your thigh I look into your eyes and search for any lies But all I see are hopes and dreams and butterflies I touch your lips and travel down to your hips And feel your grip tighten as you search for a kiss My heart aches at the touch of your skin I've never seen passion veiled so thin Every mood I hold within starts to corrode like tin As I experience the moment I don't know where to begin Then it's pulled from me Like a bag over my head Everything goes black And I wonder if I'm dead But I've just woken up And I'm still filled with dread Everything is still dark I'm still alone in my bed I've just been torn to pieces I just cant do this anymore I've been exhausting my heart I'm sorry but I must leave I guess it's time that you're set free I'll leave before you can leave me I'll sail a ship out to the sea You will never come find me Hate that you're gone and I hate that you're sad Banished away till I wash up on land Between the rocks and every grain of sand Fallen betwixt all the hope that I had For futures in fall with the leaves on the ground A family and all of the love we had found Stranded and dying while hearing the sound Of every breath you took while I sunk and drowned Well I've lost all my energy This life has left my soul, and I'll never be, coming close I'll continue to roam, my heart will never find a home and I'm dead